Ate some nice food, watching The Nutty Professor, no guests as yet, probably best, not really in fit state to receive them.

Should maybe have a drink.

This movie has a pretty startling number of extremely uncomfortable scenes.

Experiencing some remarkable mental clarity alongside unprovoked emotional roller coaster, the gist of that being- things are pretty awful, but could easily be much, much worse. Almost were, as a matter of fact, in several different ways. Would be nice if I could manage to feel relieved, I really should be.