Going to go for nice Chinese with my mom shortly, she's brought us sticky buns.

Dogs are raising a ruckus.

First time in weeks I've woken up not horribly congested, makes a refreshing change. Trying to decide whether to get weekend work out of the way today or wait until tomorrow morning.

Folks are returning from Maine today, may watch fireworks from roof of H & O later if they actually happen, raining now.

Voicemail from high school chum gloating over the death of Jesse Helms, the poor old bastard. Not that I don't know how he feels- sick, rotten old bastard.

Could use a shower.

Made chili, made chili cheese chimichangas, showered, dressed in all near white, cloud in trousers.

Dog walk, then off to see another movie, Get Smart.

No, really, get smart.

Sleep, glorious sleep.

Could use some coffee, glorious coffee, maybe some food, glorious food.

L. said, as I was finally waking up, "Aren't you glad we aren't moving you out of that basement?" I am.

Got out of work early, had some nice Thai, then came home & took the longest nap I've taken in living memory. There had been some talk of going to see Wall-E at a 3:30 matinee, but L. didn't get off early enough. We went & saw a later one after I finally woke up. Rather enjoyed it, sort of made me want to rewatch Trigun.

Dogs seemed to enjoy my company for afternoon nap.

Catching up on archiving ads to DVD, wishing I had a little server room nap map.

Going to a house show in Gill later, wondering how late Wagon Wheel is open.

Lingering cold symptoms made it difficult to get up, dogs helped with timely alarm clock supplementation.

Last night, watched Pat & Mike, Revenge of the Sith, had dreams confusing the two.

Feeding the dogs, making coffee, thinking about all the stuff I'm not getting done, not much caring.

Beautiful view out the window.

Stormy weather has brought with it renewed sinus discomfort.

Paper looks pretty off new press, still working out kinks, sounds like.

Messing about with antivirus software.

Sleep, always a delicious luxury, seems more so nowadays, should get more of it.

Lazy morning.

Wish Peretz would calm down about the cat.

Came home, collapsed, was given refreshing drink, revived enough to walk the pup, collapsed again, was fed garlic spaghetti, strawberry upside down corncake.

Would sort of like to go to bed now. May do.

Walking across the newsroom floor, noticed a paper from last week announcing that Herm's had closed. Never went to Herm's.

Went & got some coffee across the street. Still unsuitable outside for people with lingering cold symptoms.

Thickheaded, sluggish, new press goes live tonight maybe, I hear.

Wondering if I've had enough of being a temptation to the curious.

Vile mugginess prevails without, nice & cool in server room.

It seems that, during my brief absence, all area Citgos have become Irvings. Finding it a bit unnerving, trying to take it as a good sign.

About to go bring the ps2 pseudo-karaoke good vibrations to the H & O bartender's going away party.

Ps, ps, unnerving, Irving.

Slept in, coffee's brewing, need to go do a few things at work in a while, might try to work in brunch before.

So, wedding details- we are currently engaged in a plan to mark the turns of the seasons with significant events. The location was a tiny lighthouse chapel in Bernard, the officiant was a nice old man named Irving, the only others in attendance were L.'s son and two witnesses unknown to us. There were difficulties lighting candles. The harbor was fogged in as the ceremony began, but by the end had cleared out a bit.



Anyway, I think everybody had fun.

Back from vacation, been a strange, disjointed one in the course of which, in addition to getting married, everybody had colds, we drove back & forth from Maine to the Cape, etc., etc. Didn't get in as much swimming, eating, gazing at scenery, etc., etc. as usual, still pretty fun & interesting.

Could use a vacation.

OK, going to get back to unloading the car.

I got married, weird.

More about that later, reception in September.

Up in Maine, been fogged in with a nasty cold. Clearing out this morning.

Preparing for departure, sucking on a zinc lozenge.

Strange, disrupted sleep last night, wide awake at 4 AM, vast chorus of birds.

Gray morning.

Brought P. down to T.'s parents' house to visit with her & her new husband. Heard a lot about the world of interactive advertising. Buy now.

Feel like I may be coming down with a cold. Typisch.

Preparing for trip to seaside, doing laundry, have donned absurd seaside costume.

By the sea, by the sea, etc., etc.

Should take the dogs for a walk.

Just back from the premiere of Our American Friend, funny & interesting in a lot of ways, didn't care that much for the music. Got a call from friend who just got married while that was going on, left me feeling unaccountably nervous, like something awful had happened. Checked my voicemail after the show, was thanked for the wedding gifts. Strange bird, I am.

Had some insightful thoughts while the opera was underway, I think, but have now forgotten them, will have to make do with their traces.

Off to read some pulpy scifi about collectors of pulpy scifi.

I am damn sleepy. Knee still hurts.

Have vaguely agreed to play show tomorrow via SMS. Agreed, I mean, will probably be performing in person.

At some point before leaving on vacation, need to do laundry.

Nota bene: my going on vacation is not, as some appear to believe, an invitation to make harassing phone calls, please avoid doing this if possible.

New RIP being tested, about to go into production, nervousness abounds.

RIP, RIP, RIP.

Right knee hurts.

Out in the night with Peretz, feeling sorry for people, thinking about how my feeling sorry for people never did anyone any good.

Full moon tonight, too cloudy to see it.

Would really be better if I could react to the lack of subtlety typical of most suffering with the disgust it deserves. Anyway, anyway.

Grilled some hot dogs, dropped one, Peretz & Pickles split it. Peaceable kingdom.

Going to brush my teeth & put on my pajamas.

Moon, June.

Off to spoon & swoon.

Car needs fixing.

Actually got in some reading last night, stuff on Web about Werner Erhard, then a few chapters of an Ace Double.

Lovely morning for lazing about in bed, looking out the window at the cool sunshine, other things to do, sadly.

L. just cleaned up some dog vomit.

Checking on performance of underperforming web server and



Miniature donkey, miniature donkey!

Some days I enjoy my job more than others, having a big cup of quality joe.

Oil light's on again. Argh.

Gray, rainy day.

Boss's out sick, should be exciting.

Usually, anticipating being on vacation, I'd avoid making major changes to systems this week, unavoidable this time, gives me a bit of a stomach ache to think about it, luckily, cell phones don't work too well on the island.

Oil light has returned to its normal off state.

Feeling vaguely ill, sleepy, achy, mouth dry, etc.

Tried to nap, people kept calling.

Making pasta with an alfredo sauce.

My car's oil light has apparently now decided that being on all the time is the safest bet.

Have I ever told you about my hatred of old BIOSes?

Lots of little cuts on my fingers.

Don't feel like going to work. Need to go to work.

Didn't do a bunch of things I was thinking of doing today, did finally get seriously started unpacking. Gave up on that around 6, laid about lazily for a while, then made some fried rice with broccoli raab.

Humid day, got sweaty cooking, decided I'd take P. for one last walk in the rain, shower and settle into a t shirt & a pair of Looney Tunes boxer shorts I found today while unpacking. While out walking, watched tiny white butterflies flutter nervously above the wet grass, looking for a safe, dry place to settle.

Listening to the rain in my garish boxer shorts.

Foolishly allowed us to run out of coffee, easily corrected, brewing now.

Seems like rain.

Just back from seemingly endlessly deferred art pickup, nice day to be waiting around anyway, wandered around, took pictures, got coffee, snacks, sat on shady lawn, etc., etc.

Etc., etc.

Back home with dogs, walk down to the river planned for shortly.

Used to wander aimlessly around town a lot, now I need a reason, weird.

Just went out for a little nighttime exploration with Peretz, didn't go as far as I'd hoped, nagging toe blister.

In any case, lovely night.

Earlier, we made biscuits with local strawberries & whipped cream.

Off & on, feeling aimlessly, pointlessly sad. Happens a lot, it's nobody's fault.

Trying to think of something fun to do outside later.

Really wishing I were outside now, keep peering at the distant window.

Earlier in the week, it felt like the end of the week. Today I mistakenly thought it was Wednesday.

Strange days.

Just went outside for a few minutes, remarkably pleasant out, decided against hot dog for now.

Would very much like to be lying in a field somewhere, will need to wait until vacation, I suppose.

Should've gotten that hot dog.

Slept for a very long time last night, feel better for it.

Having a Dr. Pepper. In between doing various work tasks, I've been changing my address with a variety of companies & agencies.

Maybe I should go get a hot dog.

Wanted very much to stay in my newly cool & inviting bed, sigh.

Mysterious dog activities on the stairs.

Storm's coming. Very cinematic.

Hope the power stays on, in Northampton, anyway. Here, don't care so much.

Illumined sky, dramatic shadows of violently tossing trees.

Feels good to be at home.

Drove home through the summer heat, eating cold bing cherries.

Nashville's on.

Should really take Peretz for a walk, too darn hot.

Back to exciting work chaos, fucked up web server, archive database, you name it, we've got it.

Having some more coffee.

Back & forth between sauna-like outdoors & meat-locker-like server room = one big headache.

Summertime, summertime, sum, sum, etc., etc.

Jiggity jig.

Car acted a bit flaky on the drive home, steadied out as we went, it's never much cared for the wet & hot. We're a lot alike.

So, weekend jaunt a bit much, but still pretty nice.

Entering Greenfield among trucks towing mysterious devices, was thinking about being used. Basically, as long as I can keep my head straight about it, it's no problem.

Could use some sleep, up early to recover pups.

Ended up enjoying pastrami & cheesecake instead of sushi, as long as it was a southern speciality, I'm satisfied.

Could use a few days' sleep in this air conditioned facility.

Getting ready to pack up.

Lovely day for sitting in the shade on the Parthenon steps, some guy playing Asian-influenced banjo ditties, made me think of "Aja".

Sounds like southern food's going to be sushi, OK, OK,

Feeling lazy.

Hot, hot, hot.

We're going to go sing at the Parthenon with Barbara Jean, get some more ginger glacés.

Maybe some more tasty southern foods before returning north?

Hoping the pups are well.

Endless ceremonial activity, more talk of the Lord than I really care for, catering better than yesterday.

Pretty darn tired, thirsty.

Hearing about indictment in locally famous 33 year old child murder case.

Should get a beverage.

Delightful waffle breakfast, bacon, sausage, strawberries, mimosas.

Some lazing about, some shopping at thrift store, international market.

Just prepared for religious ceremony attendance with improvised song about baby Jesus followed by a shower, felt dirty.

Busy, busy day. Terrible, terrible dinner.

Forgot my pajamas.

Another rainy morning. Lovely, but I wish I were still in bed listening to the rain.

Busy day ahead, a little work, taking the dogs to be boarded, then airport, rehearsal dinner, etc., etc.

First, coffee, shower, maybe some coffee cake.

New a/c unit = freezing cold server room. I can't figure out how to operate the thermostat. Information professional!

Planning on getting out of here a bit early today, doing something fun, laundry maybe.

Somewhat excited to be leaving on a jet plane tomorrow, been a while.

So little going on in my head lately, it's funny.

Slow morning, pottering around with coffee, playing socially networked word games.

Should find P.'s vet documentation, going to board him tomorrow, the poor little guy.

Still feeling dehydrated from weekend's exertions, keep throwing back water, imagine it'll eventually help.

Woken early by call from depressed pal, one of the ones that doesn't think I'm a dangerous psycho. Hasn't been sleeping, thinks everyone hates him. Tried to offer helpful advice. Probably not really much help.

It's a delightfully rainy morning.

After call, got started on wiring my bedroom, alarm clock, reading light, here we come. Further enhancements to follow, stay tuned.

Things continue tiring, weird work schedule made weirder by emergency last night interrupting my enjoyment of free soup & game night, took more crap to dump at lunch, got started with putting the stuff lying all over the house in boxes away after work, took strange lingering walk with the pups, Pickles found an orange kickball. Made some spinach pasta with spicy sausage & cream sauce, watched the rest of Guys and Dolls. Going to take P for another walk down the street, then collapse, I think.

The extent of the disparity between my thoughts and feelings is sometimes quite alarming, but then I think about it for a little while and it seems just fine. Just how it is, just how it is.

Sleepy, sleepy.

Should have another drink of water.

Years worth of debris & detritus have magically vanished from in front of my home, thanks, Greenfield DPW.

In other news, took both dogs for glorious midday walk, bit challenging, but worth it. Wish I were still with them.

Spam, spam, log, log, etc., etc.

Took a little break from work & began my post-move financial recovery by depositing returned portion of my security deposit, had a hot dog with kraut from street vendor to celebrate. Things have been such a blur the past couple of months, I'm not even sure what my moving-related expenses actually were, but they certainly added up. I think a large part of it was just eating out a lot because of excessive busyness.

Anyway, my wealth & corresponding power are on the mend, watch out, Captains of Industry!

Being able to walk to bank, hot dog stand kind of makes me want to work in Greenfield all the time, arrange that, would you?

Have a particularly nasty headache, dehydration, I imagine, been drinking liquids, hasn't helped yet. Maybe sleep will.

Watching Guys & Dolls.

All moved out, not all moved in, soon, I hope.

Woke up stiff, drank coffee, showered, walked dogs.

Going to go for fancy brunch, then complete moving out process. Try to stay civilized, ha ha.

Hiding in plain sight, it's a gas.

Almost done with the moving, a few things to pick up & tidy in the morning.

RLETAAS means relocation leaves everybody tired and ambivalent, sadly.

Peretz is trying to lick the radiator.

Finishing up move is being a big drag, stiff, feet hurt, lots of my & other people's garbage remaining in apartment to be disposed.

Last night, nice low key art walk, really liked drawings of bird, dog, too much walking, feet hurt.

Having trouble waking up, last night, dreamed of coelacanth-filled seas.

Plumber's here, he's going to replace the drain pipe under the kitchen sink. No more drip, hurrah.

After that, more moving.

Peretz is going nuts upstairs.

Got out of work early & did more packing, disconnection and disassembly, etc., etc.

Going to the Taste of Gus & Paul's in a bit, support your local support services & all that. As an other of CSO staff, I'm getting in free, but will buy raffle tickets, maybe they'll lead to a schizophrenic getting an extra pack of smokes or something, I'd like that.

Think they stopped doing that, actually. Drag. Anyhow, tasty desserts, yip, yip!

Another interesting show at the Rendezvous last night, really enjoyed the music, Steve's stuff always cheers me up. Had interesting chats with people, learned of the existence of Honey Bee Farm Store, need to go check that out.

So tired & sore it's hard to describe. Maybe a shower will help.

Lecture last night was also very nice, though I liked the quotes better than the original content, the ground was too familiar, I think, wished it were more elaborated and subtle. There were quotes from Kafka's letters to Milena, oh, baby, you know what I like.

Cold morning, feeling a bit sad. Seeing Steve reminded me of the circumstances under which I last him, those really sucked.

Presence of my furniture somehow makes morning routine seem more so, it's nice.

Felt a lot like I've been camping the past few months, that's after years of feeling a bit that way. Maybe I'm settling in.

It's kind of interesting, domestication.

Maybe I'll walk the dogs.

Big furniture's all moved, thanks, Cooper. Feel a bit of a husk, been throwing back the beverages, doesn't seem to help much.

Still a bunch of stuff to move & throw away.

Laundry's drying, should put on pajamas.

Watching the new version of The Andromeda Strain.

Working on work at work.

While walking P., saw a pelican flying overhead. Odd. Took it as a good sign. Ahoy, mateys!

Once done here, more dishes to wash. Lather, rinse, repeat.

Got up early, started doing dishes, lots more to go. Need to walk the dog, then go to work for a bit. Then more dishes.

Seemingly endless task continues, did manage to work in delightful brunch anyway, blackberry cream cheese stuffed french toast, clam chowder, etc.

Pickles has an upset stomach, should bring the Pepto up.

Still stiff, really need to loosen up.

Slept in for once, felt nice.

Need to do more moving.

Pretty stiff due to hauling about of cinder blocks, some lovely new storage shelving in the basement to show for it. Hurrah!

About to head to Northampton for the 3rd time today, wide variety of music on offer. Hurrah!

Need to head down to Northampton in a few to fetch abandoned chairs for disposal, blech. Just talked to T's mom, made preliminary arrangements for movement of remainder of T's possessions to her folks' place.

Beautiful day, planning to spend the bulk of it dusty & bored, oh, well.

Just another week of it, then wheeeee, free time & such.

T. got married, weird. Congrats, T.

There are caterpillars everywhere & strange, dancing light.

Spent a few hours sorting & discarding, then drove another load of stuff north.

Took a shower after, now enjoying some down time in pjs, cold coffee, etc.

Music later.

Coffee's not helping much, beautiful morning, anyway.

Strange collarless dog that strongly resembles one of my dad's dogs continues to haplessly wander the neighborhood, this morning, Pickles drove him off into the bushes from whence he came.

Nice having a dining room table.

Day's been a bit much, on the go for fourteen hours, just stopped for a breather. Having a beverage.

Peretz is obsessed with the kitchen radiator, it's getting a bit old & hard on the linoleum.

Ah, the dear young lady has returned from her board meeting.

Walking over to the courthouse, was thinking of the figure of choice & the roles it plays in people's imaginations, chance, freedom, necessity, the decisive moment, etc..

Never been a big deal to me, more often than not not that interested in how things actually turn out, mind full of endless forking paths, elaborations of moments, variations on little tunes.

Flipped a coin & left it to lay without stopping to check if it came up heads or tails.

Having a tough time getting myself to get up & on with things.

Turns out that having had people one cares about horribly damaged by sexual abuse has the dubious benefit of getting one excused from serving on juries trying related matters.

Feeling a bit sick & sad, want to curl up in a ball & stay that way.

Instead, going to walk the dog, then go to work.

Thinking about technology as an image of abstraction superimposed on the world, abstraction as a hopefully fruitful neglect of things as they are.

In my new environment, the sky is larger, that's because it's higher up. Wide open vistas, more or less, still some wires.

OK, off to possibly decide people's fates, what else is new?

Love you folks.

Up early at the whim of the state, it's a gas.

Hot coffee, cold breeze.

The place is emptying out, slowly.

So busy & sleepy that I forgot to remember that I have jury duty tomorrow. Anyway, I have jury duty tomorrow.

Did cart that table up, had lovely dinner served to me on it, place is getting homier all the time. Also watched Temple of Doom.

Drove back to Northampton, too damn sleepy, need to walk the pup.

At work, throwing back grape soda after grape soda in an effort to combat dehydration.

Grape ape, grape ape.

Working in two different locations on the same day is pretty strange, suppose I'll get used to it.

Going to try to move my kitchen table after work, I think.

Got coffee. Enjoying it now with a bear claw. Dogs want bear claw.

Walked Peretz while it was brewing, camera low on battery, thought some about effects of battery technology on our society, looked at the sky, etc.

Upset stomach, out of coffee, going to go get coffee.

Drove more stuff up, got oriented to some new people & systems, unloaded stuff, went back, walked dog, loaded in more stuff, ate light dinner, drove more stuff up, unloaded stuff. Glad to get my shoes off.

Peretz is running around the house excitedly.

Need to get up early tomorrow to experience more new routine.

Haven't yet figured out how to make my new morning routine anything other than a confusing rush, which is to say, no routine at all. It's a bit tiring.

Just got handed a donut, so it's not all bad.

Loaded a bunch more books in the car, packed some other stuff (toys, art, cookware) to move tomorrow, drove overladen car to Greenfield, was fed interesting improvised curry, fried dumplings, watched Blazing Saddles, saddened as always by the decline of our culture since the '70s.

Carried the heavy books in & upstairs, dodging devil-may-care pups with an eye to not breaking their spines, took the dogs for a walk.

Overtired, thirsty, back hurts.

My mom got home OK, but their water's off. Some sort of countywide issue, apparently.

Busy bee.

Dropped my mom at the airport a while ago, dealing with Monday work chaos before & after, later, more moving.

Sometime later, maybe on the first of June, I'm hoping to take a deep breath & drink a soda or something.

Seems skee ball has left the Jersey Shore for greener pastures, not really anybody's fault, still a damn shame.

Mom's 50th high school reunion was interesting, lots to think about, not much to say about it. Got some commemorative travel mugs.

Stopped by Japanese mall on way home for treats & trinkets.

Collapsed in a heap.

I'm at the shore.

Ate oysters, explored the remains of Asbury Park a little.

Could use something more to eat.

Yesterday, rainy day, Iron Man, sushi. Consistent poor service at Brattleboro sushi joint continues to amaze, sushi's tasty though.

Now- preparing for trip to shore, dogs being walked, things put in bags. Can't decide whether to do weekend work before going or after return, inclining toward after return.

Drinking coffee.

Preparing to go get donuts. Early to bed, early to rise.

Trying to think of recipes that make for good leftovers.

Have the day off, hurrah.

Footloose & fancy free, just back from bug-soaked walk in the woods. Going to go get a key duplicated then attempt to locate dog sitter to foist it on.

Pretty damn beat, hoping minivacation perks me up, involves skee ball, etc.

Allergic to something in my office, itchy, sneezy, dopey, grumpy.

Pushing piles of routine into little piles.

My mom got in early, stayed up kind of late chatting, sleepy now.

Got bagels so my mom would have something to eat, then she called & said she was bringing bagels.

Going to go fetch her from the airport now.

Forgot my car at work, will go recover it with P. in a few, did laundry, some dishes, looked at giant mess to be dealt with & despaired a little.

Feeling like I should tote forgotten cell phone to Greenfield.

Having a little coffee, regrouping.

A good deal of the old vividness, freedom of action returning.

Strangely quiet walking in the woods, sounds of birds. Interesting light.

Some days, days like this, it's a positive joy to be misunderstood.

Looking into inner darkness, sipping coffee.

Harder to notice the occasional light touch amidst the heavy handedness. How the magic works.

Work promises to be a drag, only IT worker on premises, maybe it'll be less dull.

Plans for later include tidying, retrieving my mom from the airport.

Outside, it smells like skunk.

Work function was pretty pleasant, had a vodka tonic, chatted with the usual suspects.

Sweepea left her phone in my car, urgh.

Hope you're enjoying your self-analysis as much as I'm enjoying mine, would wish you the same re: self-criticism, but I gather that's out of fashion.

Glorious day, could use more time away from computer screens.

Thinking again about computers in the movies, it's strange. Think if I could understand that better, a lot else would fall into place. Thinking much the same goes for pets in the movies. Window dressing, plot device, caricature, nothing of the incidental centrality of these things in our lives, or nothing much.

It's not saying much to say that movies differ from real life, but exactly how, that would be saying something.

Peretz is dreaming.

As is so often the case, filled with a troubled benevolence to all & sundry. SO many horrifying catastrophes, so little time.

Leaving work a bit early to attend work-related function, should be a hoot.

Hoot, hoot, goes the wise old owl.

Bit of a lull at work, should maybe fill my time writing lullabies. Played some sudoku instead.